Got The Motivation I Needed...

OK... so why am I not doing any exercise but I'm still losing weight? Maybe it's this Vegan diet... all this tofu and soy protein and vegetables and Vegan-converted recipes... :) Sunday, I cooked brunch for some folks from my church. I made stuffed French toast, fresh hashed browned potatoes, fruit salad, veggie sausage, turkey sausage, Creole dirty rice (using veggie "meat" crumbles), and cornbread. And the only item on the menu that had something in it that went against the Vegain diet was the turkey sausage. :) One lady even said, "I never thought I could get full on Vegan food..."

Anyway... because of how diligent I've been, I'm down to 288 lbs.! A lot of my clothes (specifically, dress clothes) don't fit anymore. To a degree, it's almost cool to see myself "swimming" in two of my suits. :) I need to take a recent picture and compare it to how I looked last summer, and see if there's a noticeable difference. But I know this - I'm going to be in at least a size 48 suit... maybe even a 46!

In Need of Motivation...

OK... so it's been a while since my last Blog update... a LONG while... shoot, the seasons changed between my last update and now! *LOL* I've been really bad. I'm behind on everything. I've stopped working out, I'm behind on my Proverbs reading... I dunno. At least I'm still drinking a lot of water every day, and I'm still following the Vegan diet... so I haven't ballooned back up to 330 lbs. yet. But I'm afraid to weigh myself. And I have been a fried potato FIEND :( eating up French Fries left and right... I even had some steak fries today with my salad I had for lunch. Last night I told myself I would jog before choir rehearsal and I napped all afternoon and was 20 minutes late.

Last time I worked out, you ask? March 10th. I jogged/walked for 3 miles, and read all the way up to Proverbs 15. I want to have all 32 chapters read by the end of April, but I'm off my mark a little bit. My computer at home crashed big time, so I can't put any new music onto my iPod. I'm behind on projects at work, and stressing about having a job after May 31st... and I've just been tired a lot. I also did a bad move recently... after a recent visit to my cousin's house where I met a doctor who told me that water-soluble multi-vitamins are better than fat-soluble or time-release, I stopped taking my GNC Mega Man time-release multi-vitamin. I've been trying to find a water-soluble one to replace it, but no such luck. I could be trying harder... but you know... I just didn't.

I can still fit into the same clothes I raved about 2 weeks ago... I just don't want this to be the end of this journey. But how badly do I truly want it?

I Reached a Milestone!

OK... so I wake up Saturday morning and jump onto the scale... 297! I'm finally out of the 300's! I don't plan on returning either. Folks are really noticing me getting thinner, and my clothes are really getting too big (i.e. my watch, dress shirts, suits, etc.). My eating habits are definitely consistent and healthy now... I'm really feeling great about where this is going.

So I Had a Weak Moment...

See... this is how good God is. He gives me the opportunity to be open and honest about what I'm going through, and to not have any inhibitions about it... so that maybe my journey might help someone else. It's definitely helping me to document it, and to be blatantly honest about everything I'm experiencing.

With that said...

Last night, I had a strong urge for some fries. So... on the way to choir rehearsal, I stopped at Wendy's and got 2 orders of their largest size of fries and a small Mr. Pibb. And proceeded to scarf it all down within the 6-minute drive between the Wendy's and the rehearsal. I felt REALLY bad afterward... my mood was very low during rehearsal. But the music... the way I connect with God through the music and the lyrics... really helped me get back on track. I went to bed last night feeling a lot better about being able to look back on that weak moment and forgive myself for it, rather than beat myself up for it like I've done so many times in the past.

That being said... I woke up this morning and I was a pound lighter! So... I'm still on my way to my March mini-goal. 16 pounds to go, and I'm looking forward to reaching and surpassing that mark.

I didn't get to work out last night - gonna try either this evening or tomorrow morning.